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TGIF!

Hooray for my second post! I’ve already met/introduced myself to some of the wonderful bloggers out there and love how sweet and welcoming you all are ;). Gee, you sure know how to make a girl feel special! Spanks very mooch.
I planned on posting something the past two days, but didn’t get around to it, thanks to Calculus mumbo jumbo. Arghh, it’s been sucking the life out of me! Good to know Spring Break begins next week. I’ll be going off to ‘le hometown’ of Ecuador on Wednesday. Could I be more excited? NEGATIVE.

Wednesday was a day that made me realize something very tragic; I barely have any clothes containing my favorite color: green! I had to TOTALLY imrpovise and throw on the closest looking green thing. I think I did a pretty decent job:

Not to shabby,eh? I need to go green shirt shopping. Grr…

Thursday was SUCH an inspiring day. For Aerobics, we have to get into groups and make up a 20 minute workout. We decided to divide the work evenly, so I was responsible for the cooldown. Ofcourse, I made sure it was yoga. When we were through, coach told me I should be a yoga teaher! It made me SO happy! I’m gonna be like my momma, who happens to be one of the coolest yoga teachers of all time 😀

Today, ended up being a good day. It started off horrible. My mom and I got into a HUGE fight, first thing in the morning. (I don’t even remember why to be honest.) However, every time we argue, it always ends the same way; my eating disorder being brought up. I can’t help but blame my eating disorder on EVERYTHING.

I know for a fact it has caused a lot of family stress, and I can’t help but feel more than guilty for adding any problems. Saying it kills me inside would be more than an understatement. So, by the time I got to school, I was nearly crying. But then, I had a realization; I can’t let this eating disorder effect me the way it has been lately. It’s already done A WHOLE LOT of damage.It’s already robbed me of enough. I can’t let it tear me away from my mom. Our relationship is WAY stronger than that.

Sure enough, I texted mommy and apologized and told her everything that I wrote here and then some. She let me know that I have to stop blaming myself for every single problem the family has, because my eating disorder isn’t the only cause for all of the stress; there are many other factors involved. Knowing I’m getting a WHOLE LOT better has already taken a lot of stress off her chest. It made me feel much better 😀

Friday’s are usually good days because for one; it’s Friday! And I get to go to mommy’s yoga class. And that I did. It was awesome! It was much needed. Areobics class has been kinda tough lately. Plus I went for a jog before class, so I needed to loosen em tight hips.

Well, I’m off to bed. Gotta wake up for work tommorow (I work at a grocery store as a cashier. Yeah, very exciting. Good night (if anyone is actually reading!)

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